My name is Michael Appiah-Duku. I’m a Ghanaian and live in Ghana in West Africa. I just finished reading your story
which broke my heart, to say the least, yet didn’t find it shocking
because in my country, it’s commonplace to find children of staunch
Christians being wayward. In fact, people anticipate children of pastors
or church elders to be bad.
am myself the son of a pastor. I had to deal with an even stricter
upbringing. But I must say it was your dad and his incredible site that
really made much sense of Christianity to me while growing up and I’m
ever grateful to God for that. And now that I’m old and with the benefit
of hindsight, I’m grateful to God for a strict parent who obeyed God’s
clear admonishing to “Train up a child in the way he should go; even when he is old he will not depart from it.” Pro. 22:6
is what I have come to learn (and I am still learning and boy is there
tons I got to know. I totally agree with Paul when he says “Oh, the
depth of the riches and wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable
are his judgments and how inscrutable his ways!” Rom.11:33) that God
is the only one who is all-knowing. If humans too were all-knowing,
then we too will be God. But we’re not. Therefore, it isn’t prudent to
want all the answers to all of life’s questions before you decide to
believe. Then where is the element of mystery? Where is the trust? After
all, He has said “The secret things belong to the LORD our God, but
the things that are revealed belong to us and to our children forever,
that we may do all the words of this law.” Deut.29:29. We are not to know everything. What God in his sovereignty has revealed to us should suffice!
thing we also know as Christians is that God is good. Therefore, we can
boldly assert that all that he permits to come our way must be for a
good purpose though I admit it doesn’t often feel that way especially on
this side of eternity. And that is fine because we’re finite. He is
infinite! So it is all the more prudent to trust his judgment because he
knows the end from the very beginning and he’s assured us that it’s
good. Therefore we are hopeful. Jer.29:11.
And as for
what you’re calling freedom, I think it’s just a chasing after the wind.
You’re only allowing your natural (sinful) self to have its way. No
restrictions. No self control. And I’m sure it’s must be exhilarating to
be acting all happy-go-lucky but it’s just tantalizing because in the
end it only leads to utter despair. If you wouldn’t even trust an
African in some third world on his prognosis, I’ll encourage you to at
least consider the words of someone who is touted by many as ‘the wisest
man that ever lived.’ He did it all and tried and it all yet found
hedonism utterly unfulfilling and pointless and in his despondence
bellowed “Vanity of vanities, says the Preacher, vanity of vanities! All is vanity.” Eccl.1:2.
I sincerely hope you’ll glean lessons from this wise man and repent. Do
not wait till you suffer the same fate to grasp the lessons he learnt.
as for me, I can only wish you well and pray that hat God will do for
you what he did for Lydia: He opened her heart so that she gave heed to
what Paul said (Acts 16:14). I do however admire your honesty and I
believe it’s the first step towards repentance when you realized you
truly didn’t believe.
May God be with you Rachel!
Soli Deo Gloria!!!!